Full Moon in Gemini (December 18, 2021)

I’ve had a full day (yesterday) to reflect on my feelings of shame and regret for what happened at our (early) family Christmas gathering last Saturday. I very seldom get drunk, because usually I know my limitations. But Saturday was something ‘other’.

Locally, this was the precise moment of the Sun/Moon opposition. As I’m fully aware, the heavens hold the key to what’s going on in the earth and its inhabitants, both collectively and individually.

Moon Inconjunct Venus

You need to be loved, even more than most people, particularly by your mother or another woman who takes the place of your mother. This need for love will be the force behind many of your actions. If you don’t find the love you are looking for, you will develop an insecure hunger for love from everyone you meet. However, you may express this in strange ways, such as a desire for food, especially sweets, which unconsciously represent love to you.

Moon Inconjunct Pluto

This aspect means that your emotions are very intense and not always easy to deal with. Often your feelings make you want to do or say something without knowing why. Also you may have very intense moods in which you withdraw from those around you into a world of your own. This should not be a serious problem unless you have been brought up to have all sorts of fears and worries. In that case your actions will be driven by your fears, and you may behave quite strangely. If you do not feel accepted and emotionally supported at home, you may constantly feel guilty for what you think you have done to others, or jealous that people aren’t paying enough attention to you, or generally possessive of those around you.

Does that seem clear to you? I hadn’t had lunch, so when I was offered some chocolate-covered almonds, in the early afternoon, I wolfed them down. Then, after two beers, I proceeded to drink half a bottle of Baileys, followed by two glasses of potent red wine. My stomach didn’t stand a chance. Needless to say, I ended up throwing up, something I very rarely do.

Here’s the ‘bigger’ picture for an understanding of my behaviour. Obviously, I had been triggered by yet another family gathering where I’m essentially the odd-man-out. And the coronavirus news of the Omicron Variance was in the background driving a nervousness for our get-together. I’m sensitive to other peoples’ vibes, so I guess I decided to drown them out.

And, yes, I felt very guilty afterwards for acting so uncharacteristically.