The Inner Guide Meditation

Read and Follow These Instructions Carefully

(All quotes are from the Second Impression in 1983 of The Aquarian Press publication dated 1982).

There is one thing about human beings that is consistent throughout the world: we do not follow instructions carefully. The reason for this title is to get your attention.

Sit in a comfortable, straight-back chair, with your spine erect and both feet flat on the floor. Separate the two sides of the body (don’t have your arms or legs touching each other or crossed), with your thighs parallel to the floor and your hands resting lightly on the thighs, palms up and open. The reason for this is to prevent the circuit of your energy being closed.

Close your eyes, and invent a cave around you as if you have just walked into the cave and the entrance is at your back. The cave will become clearer as your mind begins to see its details, like having your eyes get used to the dark.

Be as sensory as you can. Use all your senses. As in Hypnotherapy, the more the senses are used, the more ‘real’ the impressions that are received.

Be sure you are observing and sensing the environment while being in your body and looking out of your eyes. It would be so easy to watch an image of yourself, but then you wouldn’t be present in the experience, you would be disconnected.

When you can feel yourself in the cave, even though things may still be vague at this point, move forward and to the left, away from the cave entrance, and find some kind of doorway or opening there on the left that will lead you out into a landscape. This first part of the movement is necessary for the rest to work. It has some connection to ancient spiritual processes.

Take a step out into the landscape when it appears, feeling the new type of ground under your feet. The landscape will feel real, so be there, in that space.

Then with your mind call for an animal to come to you. Let it be unknown to you.

Ask the animal to lead you off to the right to where your Inner Guide awaits you. Let the animal lead you, and keep from anticipating where that might end.

The animal will lead you to the feet of an unknown male figure – your first Guide. The initial Inner Guide will be an unknown male figure for both men and women.

Start receiving impressions about the figure. Allow the impressions to come to you uncritically. You will be presented with significant information, which will be useful when you review the experience later.

Be sure to ask the figure if he is your true Guide and if he has the power to protect you in the inner realms. If he’s a false Guide, he will disappear.

Then ask the Guide to take your right hand in his left. (The reverse would be appropriate for left-handed people.) Again, make sure all your senses are in play during this portion of the process.

Ask your Guide then to point to where The Sun is in the sky of your inner world. As the position of the Guide is in the Ninth House of your birth chart, the relative position of the Sun in your chart should correspond to where you see it in this environment. If it doesn’t, or the Guide does not point out The Sun, you are with a false Guide. Look for another Guide to the right of the false Guide, and know that he is nearby. Call to him, and give him your permission to appear to you. (Don’t accept any known figure from your outer world.)

After your Guide takes your hand and points out where The Sun is and you see it, ask The Sun to come down, in human form, to where you and your Guide are. It may appear as a man or a woman, so try not to preconceive its appearance.

When you and your Inner Guide are together with The Sun figure, direct your attention to The Sun and ask it to send as much light and love into you physically as you can handle at that particular time. Absorb the energy as it comes. This is when the experience may suddenly feel ‘real’ because none of us know how to make something like that up.

Now is the time to ask two questions: 1. What do you need from me and from my life to work with me and be my friend? and 2. What do you have to give me (in the form of a symbolic object placed in your hand) that I need from you? The request may be simple, it may be complex, but does it feel ‘right’? Ask your Guide’s advice before agreeing to anything. The symbolic object will be whatever you perceive it to be. Accept whatever comes.

Ask both the archetypal giver and your Guide to help you understand the gift and the ways you may use it in both the inner and outer worlds. If it isn’t clear, keep asking until it is.

When you have really understood the talent or ability, ask the archetype that presented the gift to place it in or on your body at a place where you should absorb and carry it. Feel where the energy form of the object settles within you. You may feel physical sensations in one or more parts of your body.

Again, check out all the steps in the process with your Inner Guide. He’s there to help you, but he can’t help unless he is asked. You are in foreign territory. He knows how everything works there, you don’t.

Say thank you to all you encounter there, and then return to ‘normal’ consciousness when you are done.

My Inner Guide Experience

There are some that say there is nothing real in imagination. And yet, where does reality start but in imagination? If you cannot imagine something, it does not exist for you, even if it stood in front of you and poked you with its finger.

My Inner Guide Meditation was done on my own. Normally it would be helpful to have someone read out the instructions to you while you were going through the process, but in my case it wasn’t necessary.

My induction process was simple: I just imagined a building, then I walked down steps to the basement, walked through the door and into the cave.

The cave did take some time to get used to, I must admit, but then the turning to the left, walking through a tunnel into a walled garden, worked easily. The animal that came when I called it was a horse. I held onto its tail when it took me to another part of the garden to our right. (That movement is important: left, then right.) The horse brought me to the boots of an American Staff Sergeant. I was surprised, because I’d had such an aversion to war and the armed forces.

My Guide was a man of few words. In fact, for most of the time he just grunted a ‘yes’ or a ‘no’, depending on my question. But the feeling between us was one of a band of brothers, so I suspect we had been friends in our previous existence together (during WW II, I would imagine).

The Sun, when he pointed to it, was low in the sky and slightly to the right , but otherwise directly across from us. That fitted where it should be (as far as my birth chart shows). When the Sun came down in human form, it was like Apollo, and that made sense to me. The jolt of electricity that went into my body when he shared his energy with me was truly electrifying. The hands were where I felt the energy the most.

What the Sun wanted from me was to be mindful of his existence every day. What he gave me was a skeleton key. The reason for the key was to unlock secrets of the universe. He placed it in my heart and that was to remind me that I had to ‘feel’ how others feel, in order to help them with healing.

I came away from the experience as if a light had been turned on in my body.


We are so wrapped up in the ‘job’ of living that we forget that at the centre of our being is a spark that needs fanning, in order for our spiritual light to shine.

We all have that spark, even those who do not believe in such things. What we wait for all of our lives is to have someone or something set the spark afire. To quote the last paragraph on page 84, “The Inner Guide Meditation places spiritual authority back within the individual – its true and holy place, Your Guide exists to teach you your spiritual path, your way to God, not someone else’s.”

Amen to that.

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Facebook: “Community Standards” and COVID-19

Oops, I did it again. Facebook has decided to limit access to certain applications as I seem to have upset some community standards by posting something about COVID-19 particles being airborne (according to some scientists).

Censorship by any name is dangerous. But, as we all use Facebook for free, we really mustn’t expect to have ‘free’ expression of our opinions. Unless you’re the 45th President of the United States, that is. Wow, what a double standard!

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A Belgian Waif Steals the World’s Heart

Audrey Hepburn in Breakfast at Tiffany’s (1961)

Although she was 31 years old during the filming of this quirky tale, Audrey Hepburn had the corner on young ingénues. She also had the perfect model’s body for the early 60’s. Edith Head must have adored dressing her for the part of Holly Golighty.

I presume this birth time is accurate, because all the astrology sites agree, as did my Kepler 7.0 program. And the only way it ‘feels’ correct is the placement of Neptune on the descendant. That would make her 23 years old when she starred in “Roman Holiday” with Gregory Peck and William Holden. Neptune is always the sine qua non of female stardom. Here it’s almost exactly opposite Hepburn’s Aquarius Rising. (And the Moon in Pisces in the 1st House is timed for about two months – she ‘died’ when she was six weeks old.)

I’ve called her Belgian, but her home was the Netherlands for the first few years of her life, then she moved to England. Cosmopolitan, through and through.

There are two inconjuncts, both of them fairly exact:

Mercury Inconjunct Saturn

This aspect can have several different meanings. First of all, you may have hidden fears that are difficult to express, but they cause you to do things that others can’t understand. These may include fear of the dark or of certain places or people. Or this aspect can mean that you often feel depressed and sad for no apparent reason. You tend to see the serious side of life, and it weighs on you more than on most people.

She had a morbid fear of water.

Pluto Inconjunct Midheaven

You may have trouble with older people who try to teach you how to effectively take control of your life. Even while you are young, you may resent their control over you and resist everything they are trying to teach you. To a great extent, your path in life will be shaped by your early confrontations with authority figures.

Another problem that can arise if you are not treated properly is that you may withdraw into yourself and become very secretive, as though you have something to hide even when you don’t. This can make people distrust you.

Holly Golightly

According to The New York Times, Truman Capote based his most famous creation on Carol Matthau, Walter Matthau’s wife.

“It begins with a bleak childhood spent in foster homes until the age of 8, when she was rescued, Cinderella-style, by her mother’s second marriage (to a co-founder of the Bendix Corporation) and relocated to an 18-room apartment on Fifth Avenue. There she made fast friends with a debutante set that included Gloria Vanderbilt and Oona O’Neill, and developed a taste for writers.

“She married William Saroyan, the Pulitzer Prize-winning playwright, twice, despite a quotient of mental cruelty that could fill hours of ‘Donahue.’ Truman Capote was a lifelong friend who used her and her white-blond hair as a basis for Holly Golightly in ‘Breakfast at Tiffany’s.’ She was madly in love with James Agee, but wouldn’t have sex with him because he had a bad heart. Kenneth Tynan was also a beau, but she never had sex with him, either. Then she gave up on writers and married Walter Matthau.”

It seems to me that the part played by George Peppard would have been the substitute for Truman Capote (but in a much more eye-pleasing package).

We watched this film on Netflix on Sunday night. I had never seen it before (although Susan said she’d seen it a couple of times). All and all, the best character was Cat.

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And Yet Another Eclipse, This Time Lunar…

According to The American Ephemeris, this is the moment when the lunar eclipse begins to take effect. It doesn’t become absolute until 14 minutes later (according to Kepler 7.0). Then all the planets will line up on the same side of the Sun.

But what does this mean for humanity? Or for that matter, life itself?

Some are speculating that an earthquake may strike (but where, exactly?)

Others are seeing this lineup as energy aligning for our spiritual development.

What do you see?

I’ve Seen It Before

Unfortunately, every one who comes across this type of planetary formation thinks that it’s unique and significant. As an experienced Astrologer, I know that these alignments look spectacular (from our limited perspective), but, in fact, happen all the time. We just don’t normally notice.

Two examples, which are earthshaking on their own, might give us a clue: The Birth of Fountain and the Chernobyl Disaster. In each case, one planet was slightly on the ‘other’ side of the Sun’s position: Mars in Fountain’s chart; and Venus in Chernobyl’s chart. But they may be the exceptions to the rule.

The extra energy of the Moon in opposition to the Sun may be a mitigating feature of tomorrow’s lineup.

We will have to wait and see what happens.

(Here’s Susan’s photo of the moon, an hour after the eclipse.)

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Did Judas Hang Himself, or was that 1st Century Fake News?

Ian McShane as Judas Iscariot in “Jesus of Nazareth”

His Role in Jesus’ Story is So Misunderstood

When you consider how the winning side always gets to write the history books, it shouldn’t be a surprise to be told that one of the villains of the Passover Plot was actually the one who made it all possible. In other words, the hero of the piece.

When Andrew Lloyd Webber and Tim Rice wrote “Jesus Christ Superstar” in 1970, we were given the first inkling that perhaps the presumed guilt of Judas’ actions that drove him to suicide was really about his anger st being duped by Jesus. That seems to answer those age-old questions: Didn’t Jesus know Judas would betray him? And why didn’t he stop him from doing so?

The Akashic Records

Then I saw Christ, and the joy of him filled my heart, as I remembered all our times of union. The future showed us leaving Israel after the resurrection with Judas and Thomas. The four of us would share the danger and the drama, wound together in union through the journey.

It would take a long time, the passage from Israel to safety, and even then our safety would be relative, for some would know whence we had come. We would be guarded by those who understood the design, living quietly, silently moving from place to place, meeting only those we were guided to trust, those who bore the sign of the fish, the sign of the one. It is one thing to run and hide, and another to know that you are safe, and I saw that we would know both at the same time. And so we would live, our sanity assured only through this knowing.

Thomas would leave us in the Grecian islands, and then the three of us would hold tightly together, making our way through new lands to France. I saw Christ, weakened from the ordeal in Israel, needing love and support during our long journey. He would rest for a time and we would make a home together until he was ready to travel and teach. I felt unconditional love with Christ, saw his leaving and our reunion many years in the future after I had left Judas.

Judas. I stopped at the door where he stood. He came from the door frame, and in my vision, we walked into the future together. I saw us as friends first and lovers second. Then I saw us as man and woman, living together as I had with no man, in the way of the flesh and the heart, bearing to him the fruits of union, bringing forth three souls whom we would raise together, two boys and one girl.

Traveling from place to place, we would heal and teach, building and sustaining, one to the other, content to live in holy marriage, the union of male and female.

Magdalena, Flo Aeveia. I Remember Union: The Story of Mary Magdalena (Kindle Locations 1763- 1776). All Worlds Publishing. Kindle Edition.

So Which Story is the True Story?

Ah, that’s the rub! Peter and the rest of the disciples had the Acts of the Apostles written as a record of what happened after Jesus’ resurrection, from their limited points of view. It doesn’t mean they lied, just that they still didn’t see the bigger picture.

Two of the four characters who disappeared after the Gospels ended have been side-lined by history: Mary Magdalene was spoken of as a disreputable woman, rescued from her sins by Jesus; and Judas Iscariot hung himself for his crimes. There, they’re out of the picture now.

The other two got sent on their way, too: Thomas was dubbed Doubting Thomas; and Jesus ascended into Heaven. Nicely wrapped. That left Peter in charge. (I haven’t even gone into the Jerusalem infighting with Jesus’ brother, James…)

Luke 19:37-40 King James Version (KJV)

37 And when he was come nigh, even now at the descent of the mount of Olives, the whole multitude of the disciples began to rejoice and praise God with a loud voice for all the mighty works that they had seen;

38 Saying, Blessed be the King that cometh in the name of the Lord: peace in heaven, and glory in the highest.

39 And some of the Pharisees from among the multitude said unto him, Master, rebuke thy disciples.

40 And he answered and said unto them, I tell you that, if these should hold their peace, the stones would immediately cry out.

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Gnosis No. 20: Gurgjieff & The Fourth Way

What’s the Big Secret? Views of a Hidden Teaching. (Summer ’91)

My friend, Raymond Hebert, lent me his copy of this issue of the Gnosis magazine. Our shared interest is in Gurdjieff and his teachings. This issue’s total focus was on just that.

What is the Fourth Way?

“This teaching is named the ‘Fourth Way’ to differentiate it from the other ways of conscious evolution: the ways of the monk, the fakir, and the yogi. Each of these classic methods of human transformation focuses on different aspects of the individual: the emotional, instinctive and intellectual respectively. The Fourth Way deals with all of these dimensions at once, seeking to create a balanced individual whose inner work of transformation occurs in the midst of his or her daily activities. There is no need for monasteries, ashrams, or physical asceticism. Yet the efforts made are as intense and demanding as any of the practices which take place in these settings. The Work is entirely inner, invisible, and individual.” (The Fourth Way and Inner Transformation by Theodore J. Nottingham – page 19)

Doesn’t that sound a lot like Caroline Myss’ Entering the Castle?


“Self-remembering, combined with the insights of objective self-observation, helps create a balanced individual who is not completely under the sway of his or her inborn nature and acquired habits. It is not possible to experience a vaster sense of reality if we are entirely under the dominance of the intellect to the exclusion of the emotional or instinctive part of our nature and vice versa. In attempting to make the ‘machine’ work right, it is necessary to change attitudes and behavior developed over years of wrong function. Ouspensky told his students that it was only when we realize that life is taking us nowhere that it begins to have meaning. This observation is not a philosophy, but a pragmatic realization which can fundamentally alter our perception of ourselves and of the world around us.” (The Fourth Way and Inner Transformation by Theodore J. Nottingham – page 21)


Are we “Food for the Moon”? That’s the first question in the subtitle of Walter Scheer’s The Cosmology of the Fourth Way. Raymond suggested that he had missed this whole concept when he first read it in the early 1990’s.

It’s interesting how Gurdjieff tied the musical scale octave to emanation of life in the physical worlds. In this illustration the Absolute at the top is Unity and at the bottom, Nothing. Basically the on/off switch. This may seem simplistic, but it aligns with the idea of a binary code for 42 = 101010.

The Trinity figures strongly, too, as we shall see in a minute.

Meanwhile, it was suggested that: “The enneagram [is] perhaps the single most important diagram in the System. ‘For the man who is able to make use of it,’ said Gurdjieff, ‘the enneagram makes books and libraries entirely unnecessary.'”

How Gurdjieff’s System relates to the Tree of Life*

“The Tree of Life correlated to Gudjieff’s System. Gurdjieff’s teaching that there are three basic forces in the universe — active, passive, and equilibrating — can be correlated to the three pillars of the Tree. Because these three forces are so fundamental, ‘triads,’ or the intersections among three connected sefirot or principles, are particularly important.

“Gurdjieff also taught the ‘law of seven,’ or the ‘octave.’ Here the process of manifestation can be likened to a musical scale, which proceeds from an initial beginning (marked by Keter or the top Do of the scale) down to Malkhut, or the bottom Do, or final manifestation.

“The Tree can also be harmonized with Gurdjieff’s teaching of the seven levels of human development, focused on certain triads (numbered in this diagram). At the bottom are what Gurdjieff called ‘mechanical’ modes of life: habitual doing, feeling, and thinking, or types 1, 2, and 3 respectively. As the individual grows in consciousness by inner work, he or she ascends up the Tree to a point where enlightenment, or direct contact with the divine, is possible.” (Gurdjieff & Kabbalah by Z’ev ben Shimon Halevi page 43)

* “Death and then rebirth obliterates any recall of the past for most people, whereas advanced individuals often recognize places and people they have see before. In Kabbalah, the term gilgul (or ‘cycle’) is used for reincarnation. Gurdjieff said that his theory of repeating lives was not the full story, but he did not wish to elaborate. This may have been because people could become lazy if they believed they had endless opportunities. Kabbalah sees reincarnation as a progression in which the soul develops over a chain of lives. Karma in Kabbalah is called ‘measure for measure.’ It is very similar to the oriental view of merit and demerit determining the quality of fate.” (ibid)


George Ivanovich Gurdjieff died on October 29, 1949, slightly over four months before I was born. His Work, when I was 34 years of age, made a great impression on me. I didn’t ‘understand’ everything, but I knew it was important, which is why a lot of the sonnets I wrote that year have his concepts at the heart of them. Now I am more than twice the age I was then, and the seeds must have taken hold, since I have been on this inner journey to ‘know myself’.

Raymond suggested that perhaps knowing one’s self was actually code for getting to know one’s Higher Being. I agree, whole-heartedly. Thanks, Raymond.

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The Revelation of Dannion Brinkley

Saved by the Light

What’s amazing about this story is that I had never heard of it. My first brush with life after death was reading Raymond Moody’s book about it. He published Life After Life in 1975, the same year that Dannion Brinkley was struck by lightning.

I don’t have the exact time of day or night that Dannion got his ‘phone call from God’, but 8 pm feels about right. Normally I would compare this ‘event’ with a birth chart, but I don’t feel his birth time is correct. So I am going to look at the aspects of the lightning strike only.

Do you see the interactive Yod’s? Moon-Sun-Jupiter and Sun-Moon-Saturn. Couldn’t be clearer, could it?

By Dannion’s own admission he was a bad kid growing up: getting into fights, picking on weaker kids, torturing pets, and disobeying his parents. I wondered if the middle n’s of his name had somehow joined up to become an ‘m’. Damien.

But then he started his career in the military, being the sniper of a hit team of soldiers. He knew he was doing his patriotic duty, so he didn’t have any guilt for his actions.

Until he died…

“The Being of Light engulfed me, and as it did I began to experience my whole life, feeling and seeing everything that had ever happened to me. It was as though a dam had burst and every memory stored in my brain flowed out.

“This life review was not pleasant. From the moment it began until it ended, I was faced with the sickening reality that I had been an unpleasant person, someone who was self-centered and mean.”

Brinkley, Dannion. Saved by the Light (p. 9). HarperOne. Kindle Edition.

Needless to say, the life review had an aspect that he found particularly painful: he got to experience the events of his life with the added perspective of how the other person felt, with the ripple effects of his actions moving outward as it affected others.

“Now, in the life review, I was forced to see the death and destruction that had taken place in the world as a result of my actions.

‘We are all a link in the great chain of humanity,’ said the Being. ‘What you do has an effect on the other links in that chain.’”

Brinkley, Dannion. Saved by the Light (p. 18). HarperOne. Kindle Edition.

Twelve Gift Boxes (of Knowledge)

“The Beings came at me one at a time. As each one approached, a box the size of a videotape came from its chest and zoomed right at my face.

“The first time this happened I flinched, thinking I was going to be hit. But a moment before impact, the box opened to reveal what appeared to be a tiny television picture of a world event that was yet to happen. As I watched, I felt myself drawn right into the picture, where I was able to live the event. This happened twelve times, and twelve times I stood in the midst of many events that would shake the world in the future.”

Brinkley, Dannion. Saved by the Light (pp. 30-31). HarperOne. Kindle Edition.








“At the very end came a thirteenth vision. I don’t know where it came from. I didn’t see a Being of Light bring it forward in a box, nor did I see one take it away. This vision was in many ways the most important of all because it summed up everything I had seen in the twelve boxes. Through telepathy I could hear a Being say, ‘If you follow what you have been taught and keep living the same way you have lived the last thirty years, all of this will surely be upon you. If you change, you can avoid the coming war.’

“Scenes from World War III came to life before me. I was in a hundred places at once, from deserts to forests, and saw a world filled with fighting and chaos. Somehow it was clear that this final war, an Armageddon if you will, was caused by fear. In one of the most puzzling visions of all, I saw an army of women in black robes and veils marching through a European city.

Brinkley, Dannion. Saved by the Light (pp. 45-46). HarperOne. Kindle Edition.

This vision was followed by others that highlighted famine, migrations of displaced people and all the people from Central America trying to cross into Texas at the Mexican border. The image of the army protecting that border brings us up-to-date.

“As these visions ended, I had the amazing realization that these Beings were desperately trying to help us, not because we were such good guys, but because without us advancing spiritually here on earth, they could not become successful in their world. ‘You humans are truly the heroes,’ a Being told me. ‘Those who go to earth are heroes and heroines, because you are doing something that no other spiritual beings have the courage to do. You have gone to earth to cocreate with God.’

Brinkley, Dannion. Saved by the Light (p. 47). HarperOne. Kindle Edition.

“He then told me my purpose on earth. ‘You are there to create spiritualistic capitalism,’ he said. ‘You are to engage this coming system by changing people’s thought processes. Show people how to rely on their spiritual selves instead of the government and churches. Religion is fine, but don’t let people be entirely controlled by it. Humans are mighty spiritual beings. All they need to realize is that love is treating others the way they themselves want to be treated.’”

Brinkley, Dannion. Saved by the Light (p. 48). HarperOne. Kindle Edition.

The Two Witnesses

There is a kind of supreme irony in having these two examples of life after death (but from opposite poles) having an in-depth discussion about prophecy. David Wilcock is the reincarnated Edgar Cayce and Dannion Brinkley is an NDE survivor. Talk about ‘blinded by the light‘.

As you may know Revelation chapter 11 chronicles the Two Witnesses.

11 Then I was given a reed like a measuring rod. [a]And the angel stood, saying, “Rise and measure the temple of God, the altar, and those who worship there. But leave out the court which is outside the temple, and do not measure it, for it has been given to the Gentiles. And they will tread the holy city underfoot for forty-two months. And I will give power to my two witnesses, and they will prophesy one thousand two hundred and sixty days, clothed in sackcloth.”

These are the two olive trees and the two lampstands standing before the [b]God of the earth. And if anyone wants to harm them, fire proceeds from their mouth and devours their enemies. And if anyone wants to harm them, he must be killed in this manner. These have power to shut heaven, so that no rain falls in the days of their prophecy; and they have power over waters to turn them to blood, and to strike the earth with all plagues, as often as they desire.

The Witnesses Killed

When they finish their testimony, the beast that ascends out of the bottomless pit will make war against them, overcome them, and kill them. And their dead bodies will lie in the street of the great city which spiritually is called Sodom and Egypt, where also [c]our Lord was crucified. Then those from the peoples, tribes, tongues, and nations [d]will see their dead bodies three-and-a-half days, and not allow their dead bodies to be put into graves. 10 And those who dwell on the earth will rejoice over them, make merry, and send gifts to one another, because these two prophets tormented those who dwell on the earth.

The Witnesses Resurrected

11 Now after the three-and-a-half days the breath of life from God entered them, and they stood on their feet, and great fear fell on those who saw them. 12 And [e]they heard a loud voice from heaven saying to them, “Come up here.” And they ascended to heaven in a cloud, and their enemies saw them. 13 In the same hour there was a great earthquake, and a tenth of the city fell. In the earthquake seven thousand people were killed, and the rest were afraid and gave glory to the God of heaven.

14 The second woe is past. Behold, the third woe is coming quickly. (Revelation 11:1-14 NKJV)

May I suggest that you read this book (or watch the very lengthy video, above) to get a very clear vision of what is happening NOW, and now and Now?

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Two-One-Five: Message (Finally) Received


All right! I’ve been pondering this for as many years as I’ve known about it, and it has finally dawned on me: 215 (the title on the spine of the book that my second wife, Suzann, saw in her ‘dream’ 36 years ago).

I’m suggesting that there are several meanings to those digits, these are the most obvious:

Two (binary number system);

One (singularity);

Five (the Goddess).

(As is “the two became one with the Goddess…”)

But what does it mean to me?

Because Whitley Strieber had a similar ‘library’ event, he saw a book slightly pulled out from the rest, and noted that the title was “You Can’t Go Home Again.” That was a subconscious message, he thought.

And I have always wondered why the acrostic I wrote for “Balancing Book” (the poem in which I documented her dream in sonnet form) was Librarian Libra since neither of us were Librans. A couple of days ago, I did the chart for our wedding, and that turned out to have an Ascendant of Libra Rising…

But I always presumed the Librarian part was (just) my being clever by half. (And, yes, I recognize that I was making a suggestion based on the setting being a library.)

But, that was never satisfying enough for my mental processes: it just had to be more…

So I looked up what the numbers mean in Wikipedia.

Here’s what I found:

The Dewey Decimal Classification for Science and religion.


So, it was about a library system, after all.

Message received, over and out!

Message: Faith and Science!

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My Breakthrough

The Next Step

Coming up to the second time this year that Pluto transits my natal Mercury (this time in retrograde), I have been going over old territory in the hopes of discovering links that I may have missed the first time around. This is another one.

My second wife, Suzann, had an ‘interesting’ dream on the 8th of July in 1984. She may have had an out of body experience, or been in contact with denizens of another dimension, but the overwhelming feeling I get about it is that the information was told to her, but intended for me.

So, a couple of things stand out for me with this chart: The Ascendant is almost 16 degrees Leo, Pluto is in the final degree of Libra and opposite the Midheaven @ 0 degrees Taurus. By itself, the story is somewhat clear, but the event needs perspective.

Now that’s more like it!

The Yod (formed by my natal Jupiter and Ascendant) is pointing to the ‘event’ Sun. That’s a good thing. And the ‘event’ Ascendant is conjunct my ‘natal’ Pluto. At the same time, the ‘event’ Mars is conjunct my ‘natal’ Moon: the inevitable breakup of our home.

Do you see how Astrology helps me make sense of life?

“Here comes the sun, here comes the son, and I say, ‘It’s all right…'” (George Harrison)

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What Makes Secret Societies So Fascinating?

They’re Secret!

Hiding in plain sight? No, not exactly. If you want to garner attention for your group, just tell the world that you have a secret, and watch as they beat a path to your door.

But what if your secret goes against the Church and the State, at the same time? Now you’re in a very delicate situation which requires the utmost finesse possible when you walk the tightrope between them. One slip and your group could be for the ‘chop’.

It is obvious to me that in a past life I have belonged to a secret fraternity. So what?

My life, in the present time, has supposedly nothing to do with that past life, and yet, somehow, I think it does. My ability to see below the surface of things, for example.

You might think I’m just being paranoid: I see myself as a sensible skeptic.

Their Secret

Gnostics have spent almost their entire lives being aware that their are two ‘rulers’ in this world: the Creator and the Demiurge. It is a binary world, after all.

Our usual perspective is to recognize the things that divide us: good/bad; male/female; black/white; up/down; rich/poor; smart/dumb (do I need to go on?)

But what if the way to overcome these divisions is to perceive ALL as One?

The “Third” Way is a tightrope walk between the two sides: it is the equivalent to being Independent. No right way, no wrong way; no right side, no left side. BOTH together!

Now, where have we seen this idea before?

The Kabbalah!

“Abulafia interpreted Theosophical Kabbalah’s Sephirot Divine attributes, not as supernal hypostases which he opposed, but in psychological terms. Instead of influencing harmony in the divine real by theurgy, his meditative scheme aimed for mystical union with God, drawing down prophetic influx on the individual. He saw this meditation using Divine Names as a superior form of Kabbalistic ancient tradition.” (Wikipedia)

Mystical Union with God…

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