When Parents are Asked to Make an Impossible Decision

New Amsterdam (Season 1, Episode 15 “Croaklahoma”)

We are slowly getting through season one, and this episode shows the negative impact religion can have on life-and-death decisions: the young parents of a recent heart transplant cannot afford their child’s medication, so his health is in jeopardy. The operation was covered by their insurance, but not their son’s very expensive drugs. Max suggested that they get a divorce, so that Medicare would kick in for the child of a single parent. “The system is broken…”

Now, ordinarily, most parents would accept this solution to an immense obstacle, but this couple are Roman Catholics, who believe that divorce is a sin, punishable by hell-fire.

The son, having overheard this discussion, decides to run away and hide, somewhere in the hospital. He doesn’t want them to get divorced, because then he would, after death, be in Heaven and his parents would be in Hell, separated from him for all eternity.

Such is the teaching of the Church of Rome.

Admittedly, the resolution of this dilemma in the show was a bit too easy, since the Pope was in New York on that exact day, but having a Papal Legate say that he discussed the situation with Pope Francis and that the Pope is cool with it, satisfied the child enough to allow his parents to go ahead with the divorce.

Once upon a time, I, too, was faced with this dilemma, but for a different reason: in 1977, I contemplated marrying my girlfriend at the time, Mona; she was Roman Catholic, I was not (except that I had been baptized Catholic in my early childhood). I was told that I could marry Mona, but that any previous Protestant marriage would be considered annulled by the Church, making my then 5-year-old son illegitimate in the eyes of the Church leaders. I chose to walk away from the whole situation instead.

Seems archaic, doesn’t it?

According to the Roman Catholic Church
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In Just Seven Years, I’ve Gone from Zero to Nero

My WordPress Statistics

WordPress logo

In one week’s time, I shall be celebrating my seventh anniversary of writing blogs on this platform. I knew the small audience of readers would grow over time, but I wasn’t expecting the huge doubling of numbers in 2020. So, the pandemic did allow people more time to read.

My modest start in 2014 may have been due to my focus on poetry in those first posts. I continued on that vein in 2015. Then in 2016, I changed to writing “The Star of Bethlehem” manuscript here, which had no discernible effect on who was visiting my site, in the short term.

But in 2017, the number of views exceeded 10,000 with almost 6,500 visitors, and stayed at that plateau throughout 2018 and 2019. Then in 2020, when I started writing about various conspiracy theories and bringing karmic astrology into the mix, the number of views exceeded 25,000 with over 17,600 visitors.

I’m not sure if the present year will be that high again, but the month-on-month totals are quite promising. I cannot take any real credit, since the pandemic is ongoing, with no end in sight. People are looking for answers, and the mainstream media aren’t doing their job properly.

So, thank you, readers. You make getting up everyday to write something new a joy for me.

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Another Piece of Art Rescued from the Dump

He looks like driftwood, but he’s actually plastic. (Susan repainted his body.)

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Letting the Light In through the Cracks

The Wisdom of a Broken Heart (2021)

Courtesy of Lars Muhl

There’s a new book in town! (Well, actually on the internet, since I downloaded the Kindle version from Amazon.ca.) I’ve read chapter one, so far, today, and it seems to be dictated by an Angel with quotes from the gospels of Thomas and Phillip. No doubt there will be some quotes from the gospel of Mary Magdalene, later on. So, essentially, this a Gnostic book from Lars.

He quotes Leonard Cohen’s “Anthem” to make the point of needing to have a broken heart in order to change our lives:

Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack, a crack in everything
That’s how the light gets in.


14 Understanding the Law of Light involves realizing that you have a task here on Earth and, when things go wrong, to see this challenge as coming directly from heaven, a kind of wake-up-call from above, telling you that now is the time you ought to accept that task. Time on planet Earth is not eternal and, seen from a wider perspective, a person’s life lasts but a moment. Therefore, why waste yet more time on trivialities?

Muhl, Lars. The Wisdom of a Broken Heart (p. 13). Watkins Media. Kindle Edition

“Truth did not come naked into the world, but came as archetypes and images so that the world would be able to receive it. Rebirth exists, therefore, through the archetype of rebirth and through its image you will certainly be reborn. Which image? Resurrection! An archetypal image must be recreated through another archetypal image. The bridal chamber and its image must be united to be true: This is resurrection.” (Gospel of Phillip 67:9-16)

Muhl, Lars. The Wisdom of a Broken Heart (p. 14). Watkins Media. Kindle Edition.

I went through one of those ‘re-births’ when I contemplated suicide in December 1995. When all seems lost, there’s nothing to be afraid of anymore: the worst has happened. What now? you ask. The answer comes back: Just live!


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How I Became a Hypnotherapist (but only in the UK)

Successful Hypnotherapy (1984)

Years later I discovered that I could have read his book instead

After going through my own series of hypnotherapy sessions in 1989, I realized that I, too, could become one. All I had to do was find someone to teach me the methods. (And remember, in those days, there was no world wide web to instantly connect with others.)

To be honest, I don’t remember exactly how I got Neil French’s details, but it most probably was at the local library, since that was where I did all my research then. Anyway IAH (his organization) was located in Bournemouth, so I wrote to him, to obtain information.

It turns out that he had a correspondence course, which I was invited to enroll in. I did, and for about six months I got weekly lessons and homework by mail. (Can you imagine that, today?)

At the end of July, 1990, I sat my final exam (open book question and answer form) and sent it in. In return I got this certificate (because I don’t want to call it a diploma).

and this:

There, now I could take on clients. I advertised in the local newspaper, the Herald Express, and waited for the phone to ring. (Sound of crickets…)

So, I did what any worthwhile analyst does, I practiced on family and friends.

All told, I guess I had six clients in 18 months, so it wasn’t paying the mortgage at the bank. I did better with my Astrology work, which I was doing at the same time. Finally I had to pack hypnotherapy in and go back to working a ‘real’ job in the house construction industry.

And just in case you think this association didn’t have standards, check out what Neil had hidden behind the “diploma” in its frame:


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Hypnotherapy: How to Come to Terms with Bulimia

An English Rose

To protect the identity of my most important hypnotherapy client from 1991, I shall be using this euphemism. And by all accounts, it is an apt description. But she had a late teenage coping mechanism well into her 30’s. In fact, she told me in her first session that she’d been bulimic for the previous 20 years.

Everyone who attended my hypnotherapy sessions were asked to give me their birth details, if known. She knew hers, so I drew up her birth chart, not shown here, for privacy reasons.

There was one major inconjunct involving the Moon (in her 1st House of Personality) and the Sun (in her 8th House of Death). This was where her basic internal conflict played out.

Sun Inconjunct Moon

This aspect suggests that there is a subtle conflict going on inside you that may sometimes create emotional problems. The Sun signifies your conscious personality, the way in which you act and the kinds of activities that you like to get involved in. The Moon signifies the emotional and less conscious side of you. It indicates the habits that take over when you are not acting consciously and feelings that come up from deep inside you. The inconjunct aspect between the Sun and Moon means that the Sun part of your personality is quite different from the Moon part, and it may be hard for you to relate them to each other. It is as if you are divided in two, so that whenever you have to make an important decision, especially one that involves your feelings, the different sides of your personality want to go in opposite directions. You sometimes find it difficult to decide if you like something or if you want to take part in some activity.

But a much more difficult problem arises if you decide that one of these personalities is good and the other bad, so that you try to repress and hold down any behavior from the “bad” side. Unfortunately, that only makes it more difficult to handle that side, so that you have intense urges to do things that you think you should not do. You begin to act in ways that betray the image of yourself that you are trying to build up.

The only solution is to accept both sides of your personality, for they are both you, and it is important to express them both. It is only your attitude of rejection that makes one side good and the other side bad.

Preteen wish not to grow up — early teens modeled on mother — weight put on: avoidance of social contact — 6th form diet (12 stone to 9 stone) to look good for summer hols after ‘A’ levels — pattern set in — no serious boyfriend until 21 (he was 32) — married 10 years ago to John — more like friends…

Notes from 1st interview

These notes were written BEFORE I raised her birth chart, so I already knew what the issue was. In those days I really didn’t focus on inconjuncts, but the Moon in the first house and the Sun in the seventh were enough for me to see that she had a kind of death wish: she wanted to eat, but she didn’t want the consequences of eating. As most bulimics understand, they want to be invisible, but aren’t suicidal (at least not on a conscious level).

We had many weekly sessions for about six months, and then she stopped coming to see me. About a year later, she popped in one day, and showed me that she was pregnant. I believe that had been her goal all the time, but the bulimia was getting in the way of her conceiving a child. Then, eighteen months after that, I met her on the street, in town, and she had her beautiful baby girl with her. Her child looked at me strangely (my Canadian accent probably confused her) and I wondered if she knew that her mother’s sessions with me allowed her to be born. I like to think so. Anyway, it’s a hypnotherapy success story, if ever there was one.

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A Poem about Love from 1967

Love in the Rain

“Love in the Rain” by Bob Barker

Wind rustling through the trees,

Water trickling down the eaves,

Rain pattering on the roof:

Their sounds are so aloof.


I feel you close to me,

Though your eyes I cannot see;

Your lips are kissing mine,

With arms and hands entwined.


Your caressing hands are smooth:

All my worried thought they soothe;

Your voice is softly saying

Something above the tinkling rain.


Your silent sighs are in my ear,

And I know I’ve nothing to fear;

The feel of you in my embrace

Causes me to kiss your face.


But time runs out on us again,

And silence takes the place of rain;

So off I go into the night,

Very sure our love is right.


Wind rustling through the trees:

Now it’s nothing but a breeze;

Your memory will still be warm,

Ev’ry time I hear a storm.



by David Stewart Miller

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“Peace on Earth” was All It Said

One Tin Soldier (1969)

“One Tin Soldier” tells the story of two neighboring tribes, the warlike Valley People and the peaceful Mountain Kingdom which possesses a great treasure buried under a stone. The Valley People demand the treasure. The Mountain People respond that they will share it with “their brothers”, but the Valley People invade and slaughter the Mountain People. On overturning the stone, they find nothing except the words “Peace On Earth” inscribed beneath it.


As a fable, this story works on so many levels that ultimately we forget that its original purpose was to be a 1960s counterculture anti-war song. But it is so much more than that.

Canadians have a collective guilt (some of which they share with their American neighbours): they obtained the land by stealth, and sometimes violence. The First Nations were here first.

And then there’s the ever-present use of war to conquer one’s ‘enemies’. But what does the conqueror ever really achieve? Resentment, racial injustice, violence and suppression…

The video of the song is done in a cartoon-ish fashion, but there’s nothing funny about it.

I wonder who the ‘One Tin Soldier’ is?

The irony of the buried treasure: “Peace on Earth” was all it said…

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These Marks Mean Nothing Now, But They Used To…

During My High School Years (1964-1969)

Chris Thorpe 1967

This was me, 54 years ago. It’s my favourite photo of myself while I was still in my teens.

But my picture is not the reason for today’s post. These Ontario Student Transcripts are:


There are two specific marks in these transcripts that I would like to point out: the first is dated 1966-06 (Grade 10) Latin 61%; the second is 1969-06 (Grade 13) Latin 88%.

I have commented about these marks before, when referencing the benefits of hypnosis. So now you have the proof of my journey to master this language. But I must admit that I had no inkling that the mental block I came across when I first started studying the language in 1965 was tied to a life as a Roman Governor in the 1st Century of the Common Era.

Would you like to see another photo of me in 1967? This one was taken at the Canadian National Exhibition in that summer. Standing next to me (but now obliterated by a psycho girlfriend in 1976) was my then girlfriend, Judi, who would become my first wife in 1970.


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The First Flight which Defined a Century

The Wright Flyer (December 17, 1903)

Image courtesy of Wikipedia

I casually mentioned this moment in one of yesterday’s posts. But, up until today, I never thought to raise a chart for this momentous occasion. I wonder why not?

Since the first flight was documented, this is an accurate chart in every aspect. So, what do we see? A double Yod pointing at Neptune with its arms from a Mars/Saturn conjunction and the Midheaven. Amazing.

Mars Inconjunct Neptune

With this aspect you must learn to stand up for yourself and demand your (W)rights forthrightly and directly. Often you feel that you don’t have enough energy to assert yourself or that any such effort would be futile. Unfortunately, some people with this aspect learn to work behind the scenes or dishonestly. Others simply give up or take a defeatist attitude toward life.

Sometimes this aspect operates on the physical plane as well. You may have a generally low energy level and feel tired all the time but not able to sleep because of nervousness. You may actually need more sleep than others, and if so, you should try to get it. (This aspect may also indicate that you tend to have allergies and infection.)

Saturn Inconjunct Neptune

This aspect […] can have a variety of effects, one of which may be difficulty in relating fantasy and imagination, on one hand, to reality, duty, obligation and work, on the other. Usually the reality, duty and work aspect of the combination is dominant, at least at first. Your imaginative side tends to be transformed into nervousness, fear and irrational anxieties. The most negative manifestation of this aspect is a feeling that you have to keep a tight lid on yourself and that if you look inside yourself too closely, you will find only emptiness and disintegration. It is difficult for you to realize that this is not the truth about your inner self.

Neptune Inconjunct Midheaven

When you feel rebellious and unwilling to accept anything you are told, you should be allowed, within reason, to have the experience that will help you understand your elders’ point of view. If you are lucky enough to have parents who let you do this, you will eventually get over your childhood resentment of being told what to do. Although you may not always agree with what they tell you, at least you will consider the merits of their ideas.

Certainly you will discover your own routes to what you want in life. Now you need to be given the confidence and encouragement to look for those routes on your own with total freedom.

Mars Conjunct Saturn

You often feel frustrated, as though you think the whole world has stacked the deck against you. And when you feel very frustrated, you have difficulty expressing your anger; it seems to burn intensely inside you with no way to release it. On the other hand, you have a great ability to make a sustained effort. Once you get into a project, you carry on until it is completely finished. You are capable of great self-discipline.

And aren’t we glad that the Wright Brothers made four attempts that day to see the experiment through to completion (which happened @ about 12 noon that same day)?

This is what their father said:

The brothers countered with:

And this:

Now do you see how astrology gets behind the scenes to show us what is really happening?

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