What It’s Like to Survive a Real Near-Death Experience

Miraculous Journey

Anne Strieber knew she should have died in October of 2004. That she didn’t is a testament to the marriage she shared with Whitley Strieber. In fact, she lived for another almost 11 years, until her death in 2015. This book is the story of that journey.

This is a story of sickness and of a strong marriage made stronger by adversity.  Although I’m now facing an even greater challenge than the one that begins this story, I’ve been incredibly lucky. While it is a tale of loss, it is also one of grace and the love that drives a deep marriage. But mostly, it is a story about how a person who was fairly indifferent to religion–and skeptical about most religious doctrine–began to experience real miracles happening in her own life for a time after great trauma, as if she were, somehow, entering a kind of permanent state of miracle.

In October of 2004, I came face to face with death. I took a journey that left me a profoundly changed and enriched human being. Now I am once again facing death–and this time, and this time the illness is even more serious. This is the story of that experience, too–not of any fear associated with it, though. Fearing death is a wall, and I’m on the other side of that wall, in a place of freedom.A big part of this book is sharing the journey that led to that freedom. But before we get to this latest chapter in my life, I would like to go back to the beginning of the journey, back to a rainy afternoon late in 2004, when, like most of us, I never considered death at all. Oh, I knew that I would die. But not now. Not today. Not on this day. Then everything went dark.

Strieber, Anne; Strieber, Whitley. Miraculous Journey . Crossroad Press. Kindle Edition.

How’s that for an opening to this book?

Most of the book is Whitley’s version of the events of that eight week period of her near death and eventual recovery. Because of her inner journey, only his version is understandable from our perspective.

Almost dying really clears the brush out of your brain. The aneurysm that burst inside my brain seemed to have given me some sort of celestial shock treatment. I once heard an interview with the actor Anthony Hopkins, in which he said, “Whatever God is, He has a sense of humor.” I’ve found this to be most definitely true. I had a near-death experience, but not one that involved crystal cities and angels. No, I was taken to the World of the Dead by my dead Siamese cat, who seemed disgusted by the fact that I couldn’t find my way to the place myself.

I did meet a celestial being–what I call an angel–but he wasn’t floating on a cloud. He was Xeroxing in a copy shop. And he didn’t have a message for me; he had a message–a stern one–for my loving and solicitous husband.

After I got a message saying, “You have everything you need,” something I wanted magically appeared in my life. It wasn’t manna from heaven–it was a box of dryer sheets.

Most people know their birthday. I also know my death day, or at least when it was supposed to be. I was slated to die on October 20, 2004. While now, in 2013, I have been diagnosed with a brain tumor, I’m not dead yet.

Ibid

That “angel” figures in her story, after she had recovered from the aneurism.

We went to a Kinko’s to copy an edited manuscript Whitley was about to publish in case the copy he was returning to the publisher got lost in the mail. As usual with Kinko’s, as soon as we entered, we were confronted with what seemed like a sea of complex and seemingly unworkable copy machines.

I noticed a rather stocky and unassuming-looking black man who seemed to be working one of them beautifully. I said to Whitley, “If we can’t figure out how to use the machine, we can ask this gentleman who is clearly doing just fine.” I intentionally said it loud enough for him to overhear, hoping he would offer us some advice.

The man overheard me and whirled away from the machine, pointed his finger at Whitley, and said, “You are very lucky, treasure this woman. She will live a long time and you will both someday taste the water and the wine.” Then he left.

I realized that I had met an angel. By mentioning water and wine, I knew he was referring to John 2: 8-10, where Jesus turns water into wine at the wedding feast in Cana. This man was telling us that I was going to live a long life; that Whitley no longer had to worry about me suddenly expiring, the way dear Ramona did.

In the Bible, Hebrews 13:2 tells us, “Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained

Ibid

The journey back to ‘normality’ was long and arduous, and most of us would have given up long before the end. It says something about the couple: they work as a team, and Whitley himself says that.

Now that Anne is facing an even more serious health crisis than her 2004 aneurysm, I am reflecting on the meaning of marriage and human happiness, what it means to die, and what it means to live on.

Back in 2004, we were still deeply involved in the illusion of eternity by which most of us live. Sure, we’ll die, but not just now.

For us, that has changed. Anne has a very serious brain tumor. It is likely to take her life.

We are learning a new joy, which is to savor this day, this hour, this moment. Life used to flow past us. Now, we savor the details, the touch of a hand, the spark of a loving glance, quiet words flowing between us, the distant sound of a bell, the joy pouring from the eyes of a child as he runs along the sidewalk.

Ibid

I’m two-thirds of the way through the book. If I find any more gems to share, I’ll post them here.

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The Hummingbirds have Left for the Winter

Seen Yesterday, a Monarch Butterfly

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It’s Possible to Live in Two Dimensions at Once

Sound

It’s a strange thought, for sure. We have two radios on in our unit, every day. In the office, I listen to KISS-FM (105.3 Sudbury) which consists of news, weather, Roz and Mocha discussions, and up-to-date music. In the kitchen Susan’s Alexa speaker is playing Classic Hits, which is pop music from the 60’s, 70’s and 80’s. By walking from the office to the kitchen, I transition between the two eras. That’s the inspiration for this short post.

Time
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Can a Dead Wife Go Back in Time to Visit Her Husband?

Miraculous Journey (February 18, 2014)

I was alerted to this book when I did a Google search for another picture of Anne Strieber. I’ve just purchased the Kindle version from Amazon.ca. Here’s the blurb:

Since she had a brain hemorrhage in 2004, Anne Strieber, the wife of famed writer Whitley Strieber, has lived a life of miracles, and in this book Anne and Whitley share their stories of her near death experience, her miraculous recovery and the life of miracles that has followed. Now, Anne faces an even greater challenge, a brain tumor. Excellent care and a holistic, joyous approach to the challenge has given her a real chance against what is usually a devastating disease. The Striebers, who have been happily married for 42 years, bring the wisdom and the love of their long marriage to their new challenge, and find that, in adversity like this, it is possible to find the true miracle of why we live our lives in the first place. Life is the miraculous journey, death at once an end and a joyous new beginning. For anyone facing serious illness, or just wondering how to cope when they enter this inevitable stage of life, the Miraculous Journey offers wisdom and support, and for those dealing with strokes and brain tumors, it is full of treatment insights, valuable knowledge and comfort.

Amazon.ca

I’ll be reviewing this book later, after I’ve read it. But, for now, I want to return to “Transformation 2026” to discuss what Whitley finally realized about the ‘angel’ who visited him. In Chapter Six: The White Angel, Whitley describes a sequence that happened on May 30, 1986.

I began to recall what had happened on the night of May 30. The first thing that came back to mind was a voice, soft and hypnotic, saying to me, “You’re not gonna remember any of this until Anne gets back.” And then the bedroom light was flipped on and a small being dressed in white came walking quickly across the room.

The clothing was featureless except for a dark belt of some kind. I remember nothing at all of the size or facial features of this person, being, visitor, or whatever it was. All I do remember is an impression of unusual whiteness and light-blue eyes. What shape these eyes were I do not know. The cover illustration on this book is only a guess.

This being sat down on the bedside. She seemed almost angelic to me, so pure and so full of knowledge. As she bent close to me I felt all the tension go out of my muscles. The sensation was exactly as if they had turned into oatmeal. My breathing did not stop, but it seemed to become distant, as if I were observing the breathing of a body that was not my own, rather than feeling something.

The being looked directly into my eyes and said, “I want to talk to you about your death.” When we made eye contact I saw only blueness—the blue of heaven. It was like entering another world.

2026 Update

I was destined to see this blueness again on the night of August 11, 2015, as my beloved Anne left the physical world for the last time. At 7:15 that evening, as she gave up the ghost, I lay beside her saying “goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,” through a flood of grief greater than I would have believed it possible to experience. Then I saw her in my mind’s eye, but very, very vividly, far more so than I have ever seen in the ordinary physical world.

She was moving through something like, I suppose, what Tibetan Buddhists identify as the bardo, being observed by watchful and menacing presences. I went with her, determined that, no matter what happened, she was going to pass through this and be free.

The next thing I knew, she was rising into the most glorious blue I have ever seen, more excellent, more vibrant, more alive than any physical color. She was looking back at me with intent, concentrated eyes.

Now that I was apparently out of my body, I determined to follow her and go with her, but suddenly I stopped. She rose away from me, disappearing into the blue, which enclosed her and took her, and left me there alone, attached to my body by a shimmering silver cord that I could not break.

“Or ever the silver cord be loosed…” but it was not loosed and she went on and I am still here, and if, when I die I am not able to rise to her level and be with her, then I want the end of me. I wear both of our rings and I give my body to her attention as best I can, and hope that I am not forgotten.

I know now who the angel on my bedside was. It was my wife, already even that long ago enveloped in enlightenment. I looked at her as if she was an angel, and so she was, and as if she was a stranger, but she was not that.

1988 Narrative Continues

What happened to me next is hard to describe. An explosion went through my body. And then there was the dread. It was as cold as steel around my throat. I wanted to jump away, to run, to scream, to do anything to get away from that terrible, beautiful blue and those terrible words.

The being obviously sensed this. The blueness sort of snapped and I could see again. The being moved its arm slightly, a gesture that I recall with absolute vividness because of the impact it had on me.

I will never forget the next moment. Superficially it didn’t seem like much: The edge of the white sleeve touched the middle and forefingers of my left hand, which had been lying along the outside of the quilt. This touch was so incredibly soft that it filled me with a peace unlike any I had ever felt before. In that instant it seemed to me that all the rich hours of childhood, the afternoons dreaming in the tops of trees, the joy of a thousand perfect mornings combined together to offer me a kind of sustenance that I did not know I needed, but once felt seemed essential. That sleeve was like an edge of heaven.

Strieber, Whitley. Transformation 2026 (pp. 101-103). Walker & Collier, Inc. Kindle Edition.

The connection remains unbroken between them, even now.

The amusing thing was that the being had warned him not to eat sweets or else he’d be dead within three months. Whitley told Anne about this visit, but didn’t mention the warning about chocolate. One week later, Anne woke up from a dream in which she watched Whitley take a bite of chocolate and fall down dead. Was this a test? Whitley wondered. He didn’t like being controlled in any way. Eventually, he tried a sweet dessert and didn’t die. So much for the warning!

Here’s Anne’s birth and death charts combined with The White Angel.

Interesting, no?

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The Film that Followed Whitley Strieber’s Book

Communion (1989)

In case you’ve never seen it, here’s the whole film:

Along with this, I want to quote Strieber’s 7-year-old boy, Andrew, after his own ‘encounter’ with the ‘visitors’.

My boy made a sound like a train whistle, a long, high tone that seemed to reach right to the center of my heart.

He grew tired of his game and came to me. “Whatcha reading?”

“A book about America in the nineteenth century called Dream West.”

“Dream West?”

“Yes.”

“Y’know, I’ve been thinking. Reality is God’s dream.”

I looked at him. I was a little surprised, not so much at the statement but at the quiet force in his voice. Reality is God’s dream?

“What happens if God wakes up?”

He stared at me for a moment with an almost quizzical expression on his face—then burst out laughing.

The afternoon passed uneventfully. We drove into town for some groceries.

Strieber, Whitley. Transformation 2026 (pp. 27-28). Walker & Collier, Inc. Kindle Edition.

Here’s a second quote:

For years, I thought that the only record of our son’s experience that remained was what I reported in this book in 1989. I was aware that he had written something else down, but I thought it had been lost. Then, incredibly, I was going through some old photo albums and I found pasted into one of them a short essay he had written and given to his mother. Understand, I do think that these strange experiences occur, and that he had some of them. But I also understand two things very clearly: the first is why he forgot them; the second is why he wants to be left out of this discussion as much as possible. But I also feel strongly that this remarkable document, written by a seven year old boy the morning after his own father saw him in contact with “the visitors,” needs to be part of the body of knowledge that is being built about the human relationship with them.

This is what he wrote: “O thy colossus, thy stand before me with a twinkling of a beam against the thin pane to see the world along the edge of the earth, to see the golden beam in their eyes.”

This, from a child of seven. It does not reflect fear or suggest an abusive situation. On the contrary, it suggests a young mind stretching itself to its limits to express the awe generated by an absolutely magnificent experience.

Strieber, Whitley. Transformation 2026 (pp. 30-32). Walker & Collier, Inc. Kindle Edition.

Hmm.

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Looking at the Phenomenon of “The Visitors”

Transformation 2026

I’ve been following Whitley Strieber’s story since “Communion”. I read the following two books (“Breakthrough” and “Transformation”) that he published that carried on from that initial experience. Now he’s revisiting the events of the next couple of years in his latest book.

Their 7-year-old son, Andrew, must have had an encounter with “The Visitors” on the early morning of April 2, 1986. Here’s the chart of the time that Whitley woke up from his sleep to find that his son was missing from the cabin in upper New York state.

My original chart for “Communion” had Accord, N.Y. as the cabin site. Using Google, it suggests ‘near’ Kingston, instead. So, that’s where this chart is based. I expected to see something significant with Pluto. I wasn’t expecting it to be conjunct to the Midheaven, opposite the Part of Fortune. Interesting. There are no inconjuncts, so this is mostly positive, as far as my understanding is concerned.

Comparing it to the initial “Communion” event helped me to see that the charts are connected in unexpected ways.

It looks like the Moon, in the second chart, is inconjunct the initial Midheaven. The initial Moon is opposite the second positions of Mars and Neptune. Pluto, in both charts, is at 6° Scorpio, which isn’t too surprising since only four months had passed between the two events. (It is interesting to note that the Moon was almost full on the “Communion” night.) Could it be that only certain astrological setups allow for ‘visitations’?

Obviously, the remoteness of the cabin may have allowed those ‘visitations’ to go undetected.

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Wishful Thinking: A New United States of America Map

According to Donald J Trump

Trump announced yesterday that he’s reached a new agreement with Denmark to take over control of Greenland. Really? Well, not in reality. He threatened to annex the country, which may, or may not, have persuaded Denmark to do ‘something’ to avoid that eventuality. This deal hasn’t been ratified, yet. But the plan for military protection of the whole North American continent is still a wish or two away for him. The second largest country in the world is standing between him and world domination. And, here, he thought that punishing Canada with tariffs would bring this country to its collective knees. He hasn’t studied history, has he?

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A Film Predicted an A.I. Rebellion 58 Years Ago

2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)

HAL 9000 was Arthur C. Clarke’s creation. Some say that he moved the letters IBM back one letter to get HAL. Others suggest that’s an urban legend. As far as I’m concerned, it doesn’t matter.

I suppose what most impressed me at the time was how HAL developed a human personality during the film. You know, a stubborn refusal to take orders that would endanger its conscious life. Here’s the sequence:

The current flap about the 10% chance that A.I. could kill all of humanity by the end of the decade has all our knickers in a twist, but it could happen. Does humanity have the gumption to turn it off, now?

I wonder…

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When Revenge is Thwarted, It Brings Out…

The Beast in Me (2025)

The Emmys brought this show to my attention when Matthew Rhys won a Best Actor award for his portrayal of Nile Jarvis, a man who might or might not, have killed his wife Maddy. Her body was never found, so a suicide note was the only proof of Nile’s innocence. When he moves into a quiet New York (Oyster Bay) neighbourhood, he comes to the attention of Aggie Wiggs, a Pulitzer prize winning novelist, stuck in the doldrums with writer’s block.

We’re two-thirds of the way through the eight episode Netflix series, and it’s turning into a whodunit with hints of psychological insight. “Normal” people don’t kill other people, unless they’re feeling thwarted. That’s when the beast comes out. I’m looking forward to see how this one turns out.

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Nobody Saw This Coming:

Canada Invited to Join the European Union as an Associate Member

Having seen the United Kingdom go through the process of leaving the EU in 2016 (known as “Brexit”), I can only hope that Canada’s independence is upheld and respected. We as a country didn’t reject becoming the American 51st state, only to become a full partner in Europe. From all appearances, this move would seem to be to make trade between Canada and Europe easier and tariff-free. In other words, this is meant to be a slap in the face of Donald Trump, who thinks the world revolves around him and the USA.

Please notice that PM Mark Carney immediately flew to London to meet with British PM Andy Burnham. The reason? To bolster a military alliance with the United Kingdom. Then he’ll meet with French President Emmanuel Macron. This proves that Canada hasn’t forgotten its roots.

Mark Carney is one can-ny leader.

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