The Sha*ping* of My Family

CDSM Family Tree

Yes, of course I could have tried to import an image from our 7,400+ extended family tree but that would have entailed exposing private details to the world and his uncle. So, what you get is this image instead, which is generic and ’empty’ of personal elements.

My purpose is to acknowledge, here, that we have many, many members who are connected to me by birth, marriage and adoption. And two individuals who might have been members had circumstances been different.

When I first took a DNA test four years ago, I speculated that I might have a child that was conceived one snowy January night in 1967. But, nothing has showed up yet, all this time later, so maybe I had been taken for a mug by the Children’s Aid Society in that year.

Looks like Venus was involved…

The other ‘potential’ child happened to be conceived in March, 1987, only to be aborted by its mother before summer that year. So there will be no DNA link to me. However, karmically we will have a connection, for sure.

My two biological children let me know they were conceived by emitting a *ping* at their moment. I guess, since the other two didn’t do that, it must have been known that they weren’t coming after all.

It’s all relative…

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Maybe This is Exactly What Everyone Wants…

The World Going to Hell in a Handcart

You know what I’m going to write next, don’t you? Be careful what you ask for, you just might get it.

Putin and Russia want a neutral buffer zone around their borders. So they go to war against people that engendered their race, the Ukrainians. What the heck? By trying to protect themselves, they called attention to their fear of invasion. How’s that for wrong-headed thinking? Now, Finland and Sweden want to join NATO, which is exactly what Putin doesn’t want. The plan has backfired spectacularly.

This video from February 2016 uses an example about Trump (without naming him). Americans didn’t realize that electing Trump as President was going to turn out so badly, but other countries did, and the results are there for all to see. (Trump attempted to undermine NATO, by complaining that only the USA was contributing to the Alliance. This was exactly what Putin wanted. Still, no collusion?)

Now, the American people are having a different kind of ‘buyer’s remorse’: they don’t like how Biden is running the country. But to get Trump out of office, they had to take the only option given them… Oops.

The world has devolved in the last two years. Isn’t it obvious? Someone wants it to fail. I wonder who…

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The Proof was in the Mincemeat Pudding

Operation Husky (July 10, 1943)

One of my past life memories centres around this episode in World War II. I was an American soldier, fighting in Italy. (And because of all the other lives I was living through, at the same time, this one tends to get put on the back burner by my consciousness.)

Sicily was a natural route to mainland Italy and the European continent going back in history to the Punic Wars between Carthage and Rome. The Allies could count on air cover from Malta for a Sicilian invasion. In an elaborate espionage operation know as Mincemeat, designed to divert German defenses, British intelligence dressed a suicide victim as a Royal Marine, planted false papers on the corpse, and deposited the package off the coast of Spain for the Germans to find and interpret. The ruse proved successful, and German resources were shifted to the islands of Sardinia and Corsica. 

Operation Husky: The Allied Invasion of Sicily

I started work on this chart at about 4 pm, so instead of it being randomized, I just switched the clock to AM from PM. I knew I wouldn’t be surprised by what appeared: two interconnected Yods (Fingers of God), one pointing at the Midheaven @ 0° Pisces, formed from inconjuncts to Jupiter and Neptune, and the other pointing at Neptune, formed by inconjuncts to Mars and the Midheaven. Significant, eh?

Mars Inconjunct Neptune

With this aspect you must learn to stand up for yourself and demand your rights forthrightly and directly. Often you feel that you don’t have enough energy to assert yourself or that any such effort would be futile. Unfortunately, some people with this aspect learn to work behind the scenes or dishonestly. Others simply give up or take a defeatist attitude toward life.

Jupiter Inconjunct Midheaven

The problem with this aspect is to find a balance between, on the one hand, expressing yourself creatively, perhaps artistically, and having a good time and, on the other hand, getting ahead in life, learning the ways of the world and finding an acceptable role in society. You know you will have to make sacrifices in order to accomplish anything of value.

Neptune Inconjunct Midheaven

While you are young, you won’t have a clear idea of what you want to do in life. In fact you may never orient your life around a single idea or purpose. But don’t worry. Your purpose in life may not be one that is readily defined in terms of a career or profession. More important may be your style of living or your experience of life. Simply learn to always be aware and to learn whatever there is to be learned. With your sensitivity and intuition you can understand much more than other people, especially those who have wrapped their lives around their career or profession.

The ‘event’ South Node is @ 17° Aquarius, in the middle of the Sun/Jupiter conjunction in my natal chart. (This is proof that Operation Husky is in my wheelhouse, as they say.) The ‘event’ Moon is conjunct my natal Mars/South Node conjunction. The ‘event’ North Node is conjunct my natal Pluto. The ‘event’ Saturn/Ascendant conjunction is conjunct my Descendant. This is definitely connected to me. But does it matter to anyone else? Well, yes, because there would have been no D-Day without it.

Now I can finally lay the “Unknown Soldier” to rest.

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The Last Two Years have Been a Rough Ride

My Draconic and Natal Charts Analysis

In some ways, the coronavirus has been a test of faith, but only now do I realize how tenuous life can be. When COVID-19 was declared a pandemic in March 2020, I immediately began to question why it had taken place: was it a ‘plandemic’ as some conspiracy theorists had dubbed it, or was it a clearing out (harvesting) of souls? I had so many thoughts, with no conclusive answers. It was like taking my high school finals again.

My North Node @ 9° Aries was always going to be a challenge. I’ve known that since 1977 when I got my first astrology printout (in the mail). My journey has been one of constant discovery and confirmation of what I have known intuitively, since forever. Saturn Season‘s analysis of my Draconic chart and its comparison to my natal chart has ‘proven’ to me what I already learned about in this life.

My soul had a plan, and this time around the Sun, I was given a very potent set of planetary aspects with which to carry it out.

This makes me think that draconic Uranus in this lifetime will kind of shock that natal descendant at different times, which could be rather frustrating to natal Uranus in Cancer in the 7th House (such as relationships coming to a more abrupt end than maybe you were ready for or even relationships starting up before you were ready for them to begin…things of that nature – and I’m not only talking about romantic relationships here, either). I also think it’s very possible with Uranus Rx motion in the draconic chart and in your natal chart, and with draconic Uranus conjunct the descendant, that many of the close relationships of all varieties in this lifetime (especially those that come in like a fucking lightning bolt…or leave like a lightning bolt) are probably with people that you have had relationships with before in previous lifetimes.

Uranus, in the reality of my natal chart, is unaspected (since the inconjunct connecting it to, say, Venus is a little wide of the mark). This has made my relationships with others completely ‘unscripted’. No matter what I tried to achieve, something upset the timing of it, just as Ellie has pointed out in the excerpt quoted above. I suspect it was meant to keep me from forming too long an attachment to any one person, since I had so many past-life promises to fulfill. But it made me feel alone, as I wrote in a 1975 poem called “Lonesome”.

But when my usual contacts had to be kept at a distance of two meters (or more) for most of 2020, all of 2021 and the first part of 2022, I began to feel ‘set aside’. Did I do that to myself, or was that intentional for my soul to finally reach out for help from the only astrologer I know and trust now? (Kate died on February 16, 2021.) I have been feeling adrift on a sea of emotion (Uranus in Cancer): I needed an anchor, so desperately.

In the draconic chart, Venus has moved to Capricorn, and it is no longer intercepted. This makes me think that across all lifetimes, the values that you have probably give your soul a sense of mastery (and I think you probably handle your values in responsible ways). I also think you probably love and need to be loved in the same kinds of ways as well. This is all very internal (or turned inward) due to the Rx motion of Venus, so this makes me think self-love in responsible, solid and masterful ways is absolutely paramount across all lifetimes. It also makes me think about your own Venus intercepted in this lifetime with Capricorn on the cusp of the 2nd House, and how there is probably something to be said about finding valuing and loving your own self-worth (and even other things that you value and love) in different and unique ways that are masterful and responsible (kind of being able to blend the Capricorn and Aquarius energy)…and actually finding all of the above as a “resource.”

Ah, Venus. I noted in an analysis of a pop star undergoing a rape trial at the moment that Venus in the early houses of life (1 through 3) can take the form of ‘arrested’ development. (That first finger pointing at him has three fingers pointing back at myself.) I remember as a child thinking that, “When I grow up, I’m going to marry my Mom.” That kind of juvenile thinking never really leaves my thoughts. She is still my rock, even though she now has been gone for 19 years, as of yesterday. All mothers are their young boys’ first love: it’s only natural, after all. But has my adulation of her gotten in the way of seeing the other women in my life objectively? Hmm.

Another thing that I notice about the draconic to natal comparison is that draconic Neptune is conjunct your natal South Node. Neptune Rx wants to break down illusions and delusions (you already have this going on in your natal chart, too), but something about this wanting to smash through illusions and delusions conjunct the natal South Node feels important – like you have the ability to do JUST THAT this time around, specifically in terms of where you “came from” before incarnating into this lifetime (such as in terms of the most recent previous lifetime tied to this one, which is how I read the South Node generally). It’s also conjunct your natal Mars, which is the planetary ruler of your North Node (this makes me think this breaking of illusions is a big deal this time around to your “mission” in this lifetime). It also feels like it would probably infuse your natal Mars with a decent amount of spirituality (and probably to help you get down to the bottom of who you really are at the core of your being with the natal North Node conjunct the IC). Now, natal Neptune is already close to your natal Mars and South Node, which means this is already important for you in this lifetime as it is. It just seems to me that with draconic Neptune blending with natal Mars and the South Node, it really amplifies this breaking of illusions from a deep soul level, from the place between lives. It also seems that it would amplify spirituality and a desire to reconnect with the source – again, while this is already strong from a natal chart lens, it does feel even more amplified as an undercurrent. This will probably come through the most regarding your own understanding and beliefs, specifically about what is worth fighting for and what isn’t (the balance of this) – or that’s how it feels to me, anyway.

That breaking through the illusions makes Neptune act like Morpheus to my Neo. The Matrix is an illusion, which is based on what we’re experiencing in this world, especially right now. I experience Neptune as a grandparent watching over me, trying to keep me safe from the game’s Dungeons and Dragons. To me, Neptune represents the Holy Spirit, as a balance to my Peaceful Warrior, Mars (in Libra, conjunct my natal South Node). I come from a long line of soldiers, spiritually.

Also, interesting (and more of a side note): Your Draconic Sun/Moon Midpoint is at 24-degrees Sagittarius, which is conjunct the GC. This definitely feels like it kind of bends and twists the inner marriage between your draconic Sun and Moon (between the masculine and the feminine across all lifetimes). I know that you have mentioned that you think we usually come through most lifetimes as the sex that we are in this lifetime (maybe just a few lifetimes as the opposite sex). With your draconic Sun/Moon midpoint conjunct the GC, it makes me think that you have maybe had a more equal number of lifetimes as men and women (and probably some different lifetimes that kind of mutated or transformed concepts of identity in general – I could definitely see this being the case).

That’s an interesting thought: perhaps the Mars/South Node conjunction helps me remember only my masculine lives. But there is a touch of feminine in me, too, for sure, giving me a gentler ‘feel’ for history. That’s something I need to ponder on, some more.

Anyway, thank you, Ellie. You are a godsend to me. Bless you for your wisdom and knowledge.

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In the Secret War, the Twenty Committee’s Greatest Feat:

Operation Mincemeat (2021)

I’ve written about this supreme act of jiggery-pokery before, here. The fact that this story needed retelling in the 21st century should be a warning to us all.

And if you wonder why the group is called the Twenty Committee, think in Roman numerals: XX (Double Cross). It’s a shady world they live in, and all kinds of hidden things go on, on both sides.

It is sweet and glorious to die for one’s country

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Is It #timesup for the #metoo Movement?

Jacob Hoggard (July 9, 1984)

I’m beginning to think that taking high profile men to court for sexual misbehaviour is becoming passé. Men have always been sexual predators, just ask the cavewoman who got knocked on the head with a club and taken back to the man’s cave. It seems to be part of their nature, like it or not.

The high profile rape trial involving Hedley front man, Jacob Hoggard, is a case in point. The nightly news reports are repeating all the juicy details, ad nauseam. (Honestly, he’s not that important, really.)

This birth time is accurate as Hoggard’s birth notice was printed in the Vancouver Sun newspaper on July 12, 1984. That makes a nice change. There is a hint of ‘arrested’ development with Venus @ 23° Cancer 46′, in the 3rd House, conjunct to the IC. Hoggard made it into the Canadian Idol final 3, in 2004. He was just 20 at the time. Mars in his birth chart is the closest planet to that age. That may be why he acts like a warrior in the bedroom: he may think that is what is expected from him, by his ‘fans’.

Mercury Inconjunct Jupiter

You like to think big, and you have great ambition, but you don’t always make sure that your thinking is clear or careful. When you make any kind of plan, be careful. Don’t try to take on more than you can handle and make sure not to overlook details, for that would hurt what you are trying to do. Careful planning will help you develop disciplined habits in other areas as well. This aspect can mean that you are sloppy in your personal appearance and in your work habits.

On the other hand, if you do learn careful mental habits, you can have creative ability with this aspect, because you are able to see and understand all the elements of a situation. You take a broad and far-seeing view of a situation, which is unusual for someone your age. Most of the time you are willing to let other people think what they choose, as long as they leave your ideas alone. However, you may be inclined to preach about morality, because you enjoy being right and letting others know that they do not live up to your “high” standards. But sometimes you fake it; you aren’t as “good” as you pretend to be. Be careful of this, for you could be known as a hypocrite. It’s fine to set high standards, and live up to them, but do not pretend to be better than you are. And let others decide on their own moral standards.

So, he has pleaded not guilty to all charges, claiming that the sex was consensual. And, as we saw in “Anatomy of a Scandal” the court may find in your favour, but you know in your heart of hearts that you are not so innocent after all. And so it is for all participants of the masculine side of life.

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Yesterday in History XIII

Diamond Sūtra (May 11, 868 AD)

First page image courtesy of Wikipedia

On this day in 868: The Diamond Sutra, the oldest known dated book, is printed in China.

Hmm. Not the oldest book, just the oldest block printed book with a known date of publishing.

Okay. I wasn’t sure what I would get with this chart, so I allowed the timing to be randomized. The three inconjuncts tell their own stories.

Venus Inconjunct Saturn (definitely)

You need and want love, but you may not be able to get it easily. You may feel that your parents, teachers or other persons in authority make demands on you that you must fulfill before they will give you any love and support. If that is true, it is unfortunate, because you deserve respect and love as much as anyone. Although everyone must fulfill certain social demands, this should not be the condition for being loved. If this demand is carried to an extreme in your case, you will become cold-hearted and unable to love others even when you want to. You may also feel that you cannot indulge yourself in any pleasure or even love. When you are older, you may feel that duty and ambition must come before love and human relationships. Unfortunately, if you follow that path, you will become very lonely, and when you realize that you belong to no one and nothing, you will go through a spiritual crisis.

Jupiter Inconjunct Midheaven (perhaps)

The problem with this aspect is to find a balance between, on the one hand, expressing yourself creatively, perhaps artistically, and having a good time and, on the other hand, getting ahead in life, learning the ways of the world and finding an acceptable role in society. You know you will have to make sacrifices in order to accomplish anything of value.

Pluto Inconjunct Ascendant (perhaps)

This can be an indication that through experiences with others, you will be forced to undergo many significant changes in life. At times the crises may be quite unpleasant, but for the most part the results will be very positive, although for some people, they may be less constructive.

Courtesy of Wikipedia

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How Many “Exit Points” Do We Have?

Five, According to Sylvia Browne

I remember reading about this years ago:

Sylvia Browne says we all have five exit points in our life. Sylvia likes to be precise like that. I believe the number of exit points we plan varies upon our past life experiences, the difficulty of the life we’re planning, our comfort level with incarnation etc.


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The Psychology of Colour

Blue and Yellow (in the Flag of Ukraine)

This might seem an obvious thing, but nature has a way of demonstrating primary colours like blue and yellow (and in this case a clear blue sky over a field of yellow wheat). There is knowledge in its use.

My purpose in pointing this out is the current use of these two colours in current advertising campaigns.

The opposing teams jerseys were the blue/yellow combination.

The owner’s clothes?

Even the blue-and-yellow Tanager gets in on the act.

All nature seems united, in support of Ukraine.

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When a Television Series Telegraphs a Scene from a Film

The Good Doctor (Season 5, Episode 17)

Shaun and Lea were supposed to get married in their reality TV program. But, as Lea pointed out, “This isn’t us.” So the producer of the show (within the show) allowed them to run away from the wedding. I knew what was coming next: a scene from the back of a bus.

Do you see what I did there?

(And the echo of Dustin Hoffman as the autistic Ray in “Rain Man” isn’t lost on me, either.)

That’s all I want to say, for now…

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