I Want to Close My Eyes and Hide

Sometimes When We Touch (1977)

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I’d rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
In what you say or do
I’m only just beginning
To see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty’s too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I want to hold you till I die
Till we both break down and cry
I want to hold you till the fear in me subsides

Barry Mann, Dan Hill

You may have noticed by now that my musical memories are bouncing around time at the moment. This song is no different. It is the truth of my relationship with Mona. It’s all well and fine to have my Moon in Scorpio, it’s quite another matter to be confronted with a partner whose Sun is there, too. Turbulence and jealousy would be the main themes here.

Our relationship was beginning to unravel in 1977, and this song symbolized the agony I was going through. This next excerpt puts it into context:

At times I think we’re drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

By the time we’d moved back to St. Catharines in Ontario from Vancouver, our relationship kept limping along, until the day I met my future second wife.

The song is a dirge. It is hard to listen to and the meaning is too deep for a ‘normal’ hit, but a hit it became in 1978. It also became a national joke:

In 1996, This Hour Has 22 Minutes ran a comedic sketch in which Canada was taken over by terrorists who in turn were promptly defeated when the Canadian Armed Forces deployed the song as their secret weapon


Here’s Dan Hill’s definitive version from 1994.

I want to hold you ’til the fear in me subsides…

About cdsmiller17

I am an Astrologer who also writes about world events. My first eBook "At This Point in Time" is available through most on-line book stores. I have now serialized my second book "The Star of Bethlehem" here. And I am experimenting with birth and death charts. If you wish to contact me, or request a birth chart, send an email to cdsmiller17@gmail.com. (And, in case you are also interested, I have an extensive list of celebrity birth and death details if you wish to 'confirm' what you suspect may be a past-life experience of yours.) Bless.
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