(You Know Who) (June 1, 1926 – August 4, 1962)
This is the book I bought for myself on my birthday, recently. I’m finding it difficult to get into it. Call me ‘gun shy’. The Lords of Karma may be watching, and yet I need to share with y’all what I know.
Now, normally, I’d focus on the only inconjunct in the chart between Mars and Neptune. That alone marks out the ending in a way that lets us know that she would be murdered and that it would be a mystery, at the same time. This time, I’m going to look at that demon sitting on her shoulder.
Pluto on the Twelfth House Cusp
At times you feel a very strong desire to do something that doesn’t really make sense. You wonder what made you do that, try to figure out what created the drive. The problem is that you do not like certain aspects of yourself, or you think others would not like them. So you try to keep these drives secret from others or from yourself, even though you are aware of their effects on you. Yet because these parts of your personality need to be expressed, they generate strong energies that seem to push you around, as if another person was hiding inside you and forcing you to act.
What you must recognize is that nothing in you is really that bad. You have to look at these hidden aspects of yourself as if you were meeting another person and ask yourself whether they really are that bad. Most people are perfectly all right inside, but they do not realize it. Holding yourself back and trying to hide certain elements of yourself from other people is likely to cause more problems than being totally honest about yourself, because the repressed drives get out of control and demand expression at the worst possible moments.
There, I’ve said it: now I’m waiting for a thunderbolt out of the blue.