(You Know Who) (June 1, 1926 – August 4, 1962)
This is the book I bought for myself on my birthday, recently. I’m finding it difficult to get into it. Call me ‘gun shy’. The Lords of Karma may be watching, and yet I need to share with y’all what I know.
Now, normally, I’d focus on the only inconjunct in the chart between Mars and Neptune. That alone marks out the ending in a way that lets us know that she would be murdered and that it would be a mystery, at the same time. This time, I’m going to look at that demon sitting on her shoulder.
Pluto on the Twelfth House Cusp
At times you feel a very strong desire to do something that doesn’t really make sense. You wonder what made you do that, try to figure out what created the drive. The problem is that you do not like certain aspects of yourself, or you think others would not like them. So you try to keep these drives secret from others or from yourself, even though you are aware of their effects on you. Yet because these parts of your personality need to be expressed, they generate strong energies that seem to push you around, as if another person was hiding inside you and forcing you to act.
What you must recognize is that nothing in you is really that bad. You have to look at these hidden aspects of yourself as if you were meeting another person and ask yourself whether they really are that bad. Most people are perfectly all right inside, but they do not realize it. Holding yourself back and trying to hide certain elements of yourself from other people is likely to cause more problems than being totally honest about yourself, because the repressed drives get out of control and demand expression at the worst possible moments.
There, I’ve said it: now I’m waiting for a thunderbolt out of the blue.
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One person who would later know Gladys at a home in which she spent some time in the 1970s has an interesting theory about Marilyn’s devotion to Christian Science: “She had always been a student of human interaction, if you think about it: how people reacted to her if she was one way, how they would be drawn to her if she was another way. What did she have to do to make people love her? She had made a study of all this. I think it was because she always knew that she may well have a predisposition for the same kinds of mental problems, too, because her grandmother and her mother both experienced similar fates. So the whole concept that there was a way of understanding the human brain and changing your life by changing your mind appealed to her. It was as if she was hoping to get in on the ground floor of something big, as if she was saying, ‘If I study this now and know all about this by the time I’m at the age when Mother started to flip out, maybe I’ll be able to control it better than she did.’ I think she always feared she had a ticking time bomb inside her.” (The Secret Life of Marilyn Monroe – page 122)
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