Dying To Be Me
This is the book that Eben Alexander talks about in his lectures. It is a different take on the whole NDE, subsequent healing and then spiritual renewal. The quote that came up when I opened my Kindle version again, after all these years was this:
I WANT TO CLARIFY THAT MY HEALING wasn’t so much born from a shift in my state of mind or beliefs as it was from finally allowing my true spirit to shine through. Many have asked me if something like positive thinking caused my recovery, and the answer is no. The state I was in during my NDE was way beyond the mind, and I healed because my damaging thoughts were simply out of the way completely. I was not in a state of thinking, but a state of being. It was pure consciousness—what I call magnificence! This state of Oneness transcends duality. I was able to get in touch with who I truly am, the part of me that’s eternal, infinite, and encompasses the Whole.
Moorjani, Anita. Dying to Be Me: My Journey from Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing (p. 136). Hay House. Kindle Edition.
Anita Moorjani was stuck in a very restrictive life. In some ways, her cancer was a manifestation of her need to be free. But it went too far, and instead of dying, she had a Near Death Experience.
Her story is the road back from that ‘place’. Or as she puts it:
I could not find Anita’s birth time anywhere, so I rectified her chart by having Pluto represent her at just under 47 years of age when the NDE happened. Fortunately, this does not create an anomaly where an aspect is ‘dependent’ on the exact time being correct. In other words, the day itself is enough to view what she was born to struggle with: Capricorn Rising, meaning being held in place by the mask she had to wear; the Moon in Gemini, showing the need to change her emotional response to life; and Saturn in the 12th House, making her subject to whatever patriarchal system was operating.
But the Moon ends up being pointed to by two inconjuncts, thereby forming a Yod (Finger of God), with the connecting planets Saturn and Uranus. To me, this represents the energies of Capricorn and Aquarius. Which one would win in the end?
The NDE Chart
Again, I couldn’t find an accurate time, but I’m going off from the idea that the coma started in the morning, resulting in the doctors suggesting she would die within 4 hours.
Now the struggle between Saturn and Uranus takes on a direct connection, an inconjunct between them. Note, too, that her birth Ascendant is Capricorn, the NDE’s is Aquarius.
Saturn Inconjunct Uranus
If either of these planets is near conjunction or opposition with the Ascendant or Midheaven, this aspect indicates a serious tension in your life between freedom and restriction. Many people have this conflict, but in your case the tensions may be so severe that you express them physically as muscle tension and possibly nervousness. You feel that somehow you must keep everything in your life under tight control, that if you let go, the whole structure will fall apart. In a very real and direct sense, even while you are young, you must learn to relax.
On the positive side, if you can learn to live with this tension a bit and express your feelings and emotions before they reach the breaking point, you can be extremely patient and persistent. You will be able to accomplish many tasks that others would give up on, if you do not hold in all your feelings and desires for freedom.
Your parents should understand that sometimes you have to let go and act in an undisciplined manner. Otherwise you will go through periods of great turmoil when you become extremely nervous and tense, so that you have to suddenly release all of the built-up emotional tension. This can be quite a difficult experience. And if this pattern of sudden disruptive emotional release continues into adulthood, it could be very disruptive to your career as well as in your personal life. If you have a problem, try to express it and talk to others about it instead of being stoical and keeping it to yourself. You can do this very well, but there are times when you need other people. Learning to handle people and the tensions that arise in relationships is important.
The Combined Charts
So this is where the proof of the timing comes through loud and clear. There are two Yods: her natal Mars is inconjunct to the ‘event’ Venus and Jupiter; and her natal Pluto and Midheaven are both inconjunct to the ‘event’ Moon. The whole thing is perfectly tied together.
And one more inconjunct seals the deal: Anita’s natal Saturn is inconjunct the NDE Saturn. (As in, the only way to break out of a restrictive situation is to use the same energy against it.)
The Last Word is Hers