I Still Believe (2020)

I’m beginning to think that I need to get out more: here is a Christian Country Music star whose story is heartbreaking and inspiring at the same time. In fact, I’d never heard of him, until I watched this film last night. Jeremy Camp‘s story is about love and loss at a young age. It was hard for him (at 23) to watch his first love (and wife) die of ovarian cancer when she was only 21. It tested his faith, because he believed that she would be healed, like the woman in the Bible who touched the hem of Jesus’ garment.

Meet Jeremy Camp

As is my method, I wondered how this crisis would look astrologically to Jeremy (since the story is ultimately how it affected him, personally). Here’s his birth chart, rectified to show his marriage at almost age 23 (Venus):

There is only one inconjunct, connecting the Moon and Pluto.

Moon Inconjunct Pluto

This aspect means that your emotions are very intense and not always easy to deal with. Often your feelings make you want to do or say something without knowing why. Also you may have very intense moods in which you withdraw from those around you into a world of your own.

You should talk about your feelings to someone you really trust, for otherwise the pressure of your emotions will build up too much. You must be made to realize that at some time everyone has those dark hidden thoughts that you think are so horrible. You are not alone, and you must learn not to blow these ideas up to be more important than they are.

You probably enjoy exploring the mysterious and probing hidden secrets. Even while you are young, you will understand human nature better than most people, but to use this ability positively, you must be reasonably calm about your feelings.

When Melissa Died

From the film, I got the impression that Melissa died in the early hours of the day, so I set the clock at 1:00 am. Somehow, it’s fitting that Mars was conjunct the Ascendant in Scorpio at that time. There were also two inconjuncts, one involving Venus and the Midheaven, the other the Moon and Neptune; all apt.

Putting the two charts together highlights the potential for success in Jeremy’s life: his Saturn is conjunct the event Midheaven and his Midheaven is conjunct the event Venus (with interactive inconjuncts). His Mercury in the final degrees of Sagittarius is inconjunct the event Jupiter, while the event Sun is inconjunct his natal Ascendant. (In other words, without the traumatic death of his loved one, he wouldn’t have become the singer/songwriter he is today.)

I Still Believe

Scattered words and empty thoughts
Seem to pour from my heart
I’ve never felt so torn before
Seems I don’t know where to start
But it’s now that I feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip, washing away my pain

‘Cause I still believe in your faithfulness
‘Cause I still believe in your truth
‘Cause I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don’t see, I still believe

Though the questions seem to fog up my mind
With promises I still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It’s my heart I see you prepare
But it’s now that I feel your grace fall like rain
From every finger tip, washing away my pain

‘Cause I still believe in your faithfulness
‘Cause I still believe in your truth
‘Cause I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don’t see, I still believe

Well, the only place I can go is into your arms
Where I throw to you my feeble prayers
Well, in brokenness I can see that this was your will for me
Help me to know you are near

‘Cause I still believe in your faithfulness
‘Cause I still believe in your truth
‘Cause I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don’t see, I still believe