Category Archives: personal

Three Month Isolation Looks Like This

Posted on May 19, 2020 by cdsmiller17
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THAT Letter (full text)

Posted on May 19, 2020 by cdsmiller17

18 October 74 Hi darling, It was so good hearing you on the phone today; and I am glad we had a good talk, too. When I was talking to Helen last night, she really spoke with pride and affection … Continue reading →

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Deception

Posted on May 18, 2020 by cdsmiller17

  Could be I deserve ev’rything I get! How else can I account for my good luck? Otherwise, I might now be really stuck In situations that were much too wet. Conjunctions between Sun and Jupiter Enact a reign of … Continue reading →

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Too Bad (a Personal Memoir)

Posted on May 17, 2020 by cdsmiller17

  If one could choose which course to take, the way would be so much easier to see. But life isn’t like that: most of the time one wanders around in a fog as if his eyes were blind, he … Continue reading →

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Ego Gets Such a Bad Reputation

Posted on May 16, 2020 by cdsmiller17

“I Am” Most of us have been seduced into thinking that the ego is the worst thing in the world. But what if I told you that, in metaphysical terms, ego, spiritual–The true self; an individualized center of God consciousness; … Continue reading →

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The Old Folks at Home (on Mother’s Day)

Posted on May 14, 2020 by cdsmiller17

Porch photo by April Barber (morgellicreative.com)

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Untitled

Posted on May 14, 2020 by cdsmiller17

To want to experience someone else While not clear to indulge freely with them Is like having an ache which doesn’t hurt But throbs and causes discomfort inside. Do I seem different to you when we’re alone? Do I seem … Continue reading →

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A Dream (Hell, It’s a Nightmare)

Posted on May 13, 2020 by cdsmiller17

  I glaze into her eyes, purple haze, smoking black; She shows her teeth (They’re clean, Mine aren’t).   She crosses her eyes to look at me, making her squint; She tries to foresee (But can’t very far Beyond me). … Continue reading →

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Love

Posted on May 12, 2020 by cdsmiller17

I gaze into her eyes (soft-colored blue, gazing back), She smiles, I grin, And we hold hands.   She stares away from me (into the Vacuum of my mind); She thinks about the future, My love, And me.   I … Continue reading →

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Life (version three)

Posted on May 12, 2020 by cdsmiller17

  The Meaning is gone And Time is passing: Daydreams keep coming With every yawn.   Crooked thoughts make crooked paths That my mind will follow And the resulting sorrow Will almost always stir my wrath.   Love is a … Continue reading →

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